I’ve had my first job for a year now. My partner got his dream job which requires us to move. My job had an office in that state. But because of stupid in person team rules from this aloof dipshit VP (came from Amazon surprise surprise) they won’t let me move and keep working.
I thought if I could be reasonable and up front they would work with me. But now I’m just a corpse to them. Already working on replacing me. Even though it will be more expensive and might tank the project per the teams advice. I’m on 4 hours sleep right now so might just be ranting.
But I am disconcerted by the level of visceral hatred I feel towards this VP. So detached, so caught up in vapid buzzwords. Where do these people come from. Why are there so many of them in positions of power. How do I handle these feelings without making my partner feel guilty.
I’ve probably made a straw man out of him. He probably has a family and interests. I don’t like how I feel this way. I’ve never felt this way. I don’t want to go back out into the job market.
Anger, especially in a situation like this, is expected, natural, and healthy. Not having anger in this situation would be a problem.
If it’s causing issues in your life, though, it’s definitely worthwhile to consider taking some steps to improve your mental health.
Therapy’s probably the obvious low-hanging fruit. You talk about “handling these feelings without making my partner feel guilty”. That’s something talk therapy would be really good at addressing.
Another approach you can take (and not mutually exclusive with therapy by any means) is a mindfulness sort of practice. Both being mindful of your feelings during your regular day/routine as well as setting aside some time to sit still and watch your thoughts can be very helpful. Here’s one guide you could follow. But feel free to research and pick a method yourself if you prefer. (And you definitely don’t need an app unless that appeals to you.)